SPAM

Stabbed in a million places,
not a knife in sight
Cut upon vital organs,
without any wounds
Hollowed out inside,
tears iching behind my eyes.
Licking upon my heart
like flames upon flesh.
All beauty burns me,
I get so tired of it
and aspiring to embody it.

Free sprit
caged
within this place.
Dry tears
and silet wails.
Gazing into the sunset,
dreaming
of free sky and a light heart.

Growing restless of my desire
to be held,
and to hold.
Becoming impatient
with my need
for seculded attention.
Begining to hate my yearning,
feigning,
wanting.
Ashamed
because Im unsure if they are shared.

Oh shit I think love you.

So scared to be held,
in fear I might like it.
Afraid to love you,
for you might not return.
So I'll just bury my feelings, these unwanted feelings
I don't want to like you,
I'm so terrified that I want to be your wife.

I tremble at night because I want to have your child.
But is the guilt yours or mine? I want to be your whole life.
Why do I like you? especially since I don't want to.
So I'll just bury these feelings,
these unwanted feel.....
Oh shit Im IN LOVE.